Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Feeling Discouraged

I think Brian and I have much higher expectations and thought that we would have a child faster than the process is taking. I feel that it is uncertain and we are basically just waiting for a mom to "give her child away." We have been in the domestic adoption since mid-April and I know that it has not been that long but we are very impatient. We lost Grace in 2006 and we are going on 2 years now.

I just don't feel that things are going our way. First we go to Vietnam and that falls through and now we play the waiting game. I thought that if we opened all the possibilities that something would happen sooner. I know- everyone will say it will happen but I'm sick of waiting. WE ARE READY NOW!!! We were ready yesterday and it's so hard to just wait. I keep busy with sewing, work, friends but it is always on my mind. Everyday I call home to see if they left a message. Everyday there is no call and it bums me out! So, as I sit here and twiddle my thumbs- I patiently wait!!

3 comments:

Kristi said...

Jen,

I am so sorry, I can only imagine how hard it must be to wait and wait and wait. I can only hope a baby comes into your lives soon because I know what wonderful parents you and Brian will be. I don't know if this would help or if you are already doing this but what about writing in a journal for Claire or Carson to read someday. You could describe your feelings, thoughts and the plans that you have for him or her. What a special gift that he/she would have and it would certainly tell them know HOW MUCH he or she was loved before they even came into your lives. I know there is nothing I can say that will make the process go faster or make you feel better so please know that I sorry and I am here for you.

Corinne said...

I am so sorry that you are feeling so trapped by the drawn out timing of this process. I cannot imagine the angst - I would be calling my voice mail all the time.

It can't help that the media is always talking about celebrities (Angelina) who seem to receive adopted children simply by making the decision to adopt.

Hang in there... your arms will be holding a child very soon. And once they arrive in your family, you will be amazed that you ever doubted it would be reality.

Continue to stay strong and positive - this WILL happen for you guys!

Love,
Corinne

Jill said...

Oh Jen,

I am so sorry it is taking so long to met Claire or Carson. You and Brian will have a child soon and you will be wonderful parents!! Sending you positive thought your way!!